I currently feel overwhelmed by situations.
I have high levels of anxiety over the future. I feel like a lot of changes in my life are outside of my control. In my day-to-day life, I don’t exhibit symptoms of anxiety. However, in my current mindset, I have a lot of worry and anxiety about loss, and past experiences.
My expectation are to experience disappointment with the care I am receiving for my mental health. Once the crisis team has stabilised me I expect to get lost in a waiting list of people
My emotions relating to the kids going to uni are bittersweet. I have every confidence that they will have the time of their lives. They will meet new people, have new experiences and create new memories to treasure. But equally, I know I will miss their company. I will be scared of being left behind.
I experienced a lot of anguish over my ex-husband’s accident and the incidents surrounding that experience. I find myself often being triggered by memories of this event. Especially experiences I linked to an intuition or gut feeling that I had experienced that day.
I am experiencing a high level of despair in relation to my future surrounding my children leaving and the future of my husband and my relationship and how it will evolve.
The grief we held over the loss of my father should have united us. Instead, it drove a wedge between the family.
I am a very empathetic person and find it easy to put myself in others’ situations. However, I also try to be the fixer and recognise sometimes it’s better just to listen.
I’m very poor at taking other’s advice.
I have good intentions of setting boundaries, but am not good at enforcing them.
I feel ashamed about my actions on Wednesday. I felt humiliated being in the room with the guard as I disassociated myself from the other people in there.
I feel shameful that my business failed and I feel resentment towards myself that my body had failed me.
I like to be seen as a perfectionist in my work and feel like a failure for the mistakes I make. If people see me as being perfect in my current hobbies and work they will not question why my previous business failed.
I set very high expectations for myself and superimpose these expectations on what others should have for me.