Last week I went to my CBT for my first ‘proper’ session.
As Id already figured out this confirmed I feel I am out of control in basically every element of my life down to my stupid illness.
I cant control my energy levels, I cant control my ability to work at the moment as I havent got my head around pacing and i dont know where my future will take me whereas previously I have had each scenario mapped out in my head for every eventuality
The only bit I feel like I can actually take control of at the moment is mine and my lovely husbands ever increasing waist bands, so as a result I have made family meals my new project
I came home very excited and told my husband of my plans of taking back an element of my life and things were going to change!!.
Ok the reality in my head was Ill take back control if i have the energy – otherwise its take out all the way.
So anyway he thought it was a cracking idea, and as I had tried the elimination diet a few months back without seeing any change in my health or hips, he suggested that maybe now was a good time to try cutting out all meats this time as this would be uber healthy and a sure fire way to make us lose weight and hopefully help my pains.
Now this is coming from the man who hates vegetarian food, hates all things hippy and needs bacon in his life at least daily.
There have even been days where he has annoyed me so much I have fed him vegetarian food as a punishment!
But I thought what the heck, Ill go with it.
So I researched foodie sites, googled chickpeas, ordered 4 different kinds of bean and put my quinoa on to soak.
It was only then I realised we’ve been invited to a party this weekend and there is going to be a hogroast!
This really is going to be a week from hell!