I’ve been signed off.
Work had called a meeting to discuss the amount of time I’ve had off.
I had a note of amended duties and hours in place. They planned the meeting the week that note finished.
I know I’m still not in the best place as I still keep having toxic thoughts and there is still no plan in place for any kind of counselling or therapy to give me the tools to move forward.
So I contacted my GP for an extension on my note.
A note work had said I wouldn’t need.
When the GP sent it through it said unfit to work.
I called asking to amend but she feels because of my honesty that I am too much of a danger to myself to keep leaving the house where I can’t be monitored by my husband.
I spoke with work about the possibility of working from home. It’s a privilege I have to apply for.
I’ve passed my probation, I have a good work ethic and am excellent with the customers by their account, but due to my sickness record, it’s been implied I’m unlikely to be granted permission.
Of course, they back tracked that when my husband asked for clarification.
The majority of the time I’ve not worked excluding the 2 weeks being signed off was because I felt unsafe travelling to and from work.
Due to needing to drive, I couldn’t take the anti-anxiety meds that I needed to keep me level. But had I had the ability to work from home, I wouldn’t have missed so much time.
It feels like a set-up.
It feels like this is the start of my being made redundant.
It just increases my thoughts of inadequacy and feeds the toxic thoughts that I don’t have a place on this earth.