When I first started feeling the effects of Fibromyalgia I found it difficult to plan my weeks. I never knew from day to day how it would affect my body and what affect different activities would have the next day or the next. I lost the ability to work the long and physical hours that were required to keep my business trading and as a result I had to close the doors on my shop that had been my life for almost 10 years. Through fibro fog I have lost the ability to retain information such as remembering the right … Continue reading “What else can I loose?”
Category: Grief
I will not let Fibro define me
Today has not been a good day. For the last few weeks I’ve been struggling. It’s the same old thing. My head says I can but my body just laughs and lets me down. Since closing the shop I have also been struggling with my identity and equally how people see me. For the last 10 years I’ve been that lady who runs the flower shop. And 4 of those years I was the lady who does In Bloom from the flower shop. And for the 2 years before buying my shop I had been the lady who makes the … Continue reading “I will not let Fibro define me”
Happy 100th birthday Grandad
I remember the perfectly manicured nails on his strong hands and running my fingers across the ridges. I remember the sweet smelling curls of wood in the corners of his otherwise immaculate work shed. He’d usually have a scab on the top of his head where he’d been distracted by his work and had bumped it whilst going in and out of its door. Nanny would always tut to hide the smile of assurance that he still hadn’t learnt. I remember the itchiness of the fabric of his kilt when I sat on his lap eagerly waiting for a dance … Continue reading “Happy 100th birthday Grandad”
No bunnies were harmed in the writing of this blog
In the build up to Christmas I went craft mad! I made chutney and chilli jam, marmalade and mince pies. I made and decorated 4 Xmas cakes plus a tray of mini Christmas cupcakes and had cookies and biscuits coming out of my ears! I sewed both my kids comedy jumpers, I made a jacket, key rings and tree decs. Every member of my family was boxed up a hamper full of home made goodies. I made silly signs, embroidered pictures and even a tshirt that gave the wearer twinkly tits. I was chuffed to bits with how most of … Continue reading “No bunnies were harmed in the writing of this blog”
When it comes to life none of us are winning like we thought we would
Couple of days ago I thought I was having a pretty crappy day. Within the first hour of getting up I had to yell at my kids half a dozen times for stupid stuff, like smearing cream cheese over the draw handle, bickering with each other non stop and not being dressed 10 minutes before they should be leaving the house, let alone actually brushing their teeth, and then the dishwasher broke…again. Once they had left for school I had a really bad case of fibro fog to the point I started to worry that’s Id never get back to … Continue reading “When it comes to life none of us are winning like we thought we would”
Dadiversary
Today is Dadiversary, Its the anniversary of the day we lost him. My brother, sister and I all treat the day very different. My sister will have got up early, visited his grave, has posted on Facebook in his memory and he will not be far from her thoughts all day. My brother doesn’t talk about it much… but then hes a boy and boys don’t. I’m pretty sure at some point in the day he will realise the dates significance, he will spend a few moments thinking of my dad, wish some things could have been different and be … Continue reading “Dadiversary”