I think 2023 will forever be known as the year I tried. I tried to kill myself, I tried to refind myself, I tried to hold it together as my head filled with poison over things I could no longer control. I tried to build bridges. I tried to move forward despite the feeling that I was constantly wading through treacle. I tried to be well when I’m still very much not well at all. And currently, that relates to my trying to ‘do’ Christmas. If you have been on this site for more than a couple of clicks, you’ll … Continue reading “2023 The year I tried”
Category: Crafts
I want to go home
I want to go home. The reality is I’m sitting on our sofa in front of our TV, but I don’t feel home. Maybe an hour in bed would make me feel better, but right now nowhere feels quite like I’m home or a place where I can be myself. I paint on the face with the kids to they think I’m getting my shit together. They don’t deserve to keep seeing the wreck that I am. And I’ve tried talking to my husband, but because my thoughts are so contradictory to one another he does seem to be able … Continue reading “I want to go home”
Baby steps
Today was a better day. I still don’t get good days, but it’s been better than I have been in a while. I found time for crafting and working on my current project. Something yesterday I thought I was going to put straight in the bin. I didn’t work on it for long. But I can see the progress. I also wrote myself a list of things to tick off as and when I do them. I didn’t achieve anything on the list, but I feel better that there is a plan. That means I’m imagining days in the future … Continue reading “Baby steps”
Hobbycraft addiction
As part of my care plan I have to attend 3 classes each week. I see them as a kind of evidence that I am trying to get better. One of the classes is over zoom so that’s a doddle, but the other 2 are face to face. I have no issue with the class being face to face other than it’s location. It’s a 3 minute drive from both Costa and a Hobbycraft, and if you haven’t worked out from previous posts my go to therapy is new stationery, bullet journals and fancy pens to write in them with. … Continue reading “Hobbycraft addiction”
Personalised knobs
With all the furniture and bedrooms I seem to have been decorating its been nearly impossible to accessories everything with the same themes. Its not that similar products aren’t out there, its just they cost an absolute fortune to get something that’s almost right. One of the hardest things to find has been draw knobs so with a few Youtube videos I figured out how to make my own. I found some plain white ceramic knobs on Ebay and printed the design onto decal paper. After 3 or 4 coats of protective polyurethane i soaked the designs and transferred them to the knobs. … Continue reading “Personalised knobs”
Cherry blossom tree
My sister has been having the world’s longest house extension. I don‘t mean her house is massive, I mean its taken forever!!! How she didn’t go stir crazy with all those builders in the house I don’t know! The worst bit about how long it’s taken is that it means my sister has spent hours and hours on Pintrest coming up with ideas about how fabulous her new home will be, but as always with these things, after she’s paid the builder’s fee she has champagne tastes and a lemonade budget. The other problem is she is not the most … Continue reading “Cherry blossom tree”
Not so crafty mum
When I was young I always dreamed of being a mum. Where some girls fantasise about their big white wedding my fantasies were of days filled with glitter and pritt-sticks, adventures in the woods, picnics of homemade delights and fun filled days educating them with in castles and museums. My reading out the signboards, their eyes glued to me, mesmerised as they learned the secrets of the world. Long before they appeared I had a draw full of soft cuddly clothes and tiny shoes. I knew no matter what it took in life I was going to be a mum … Continue reading “Not so crafty mum”
Is having a mini me a little too weird?
Finally this week I had some time where my energy levels picked up, I had the downstairs to myself (thank heavens for the Xbox at half term!) And I had the brain space to ignore all the things I thought I needed to do and decided to do something just for me. I broke out my sewing machine, chose one of the ninety billion fun fabrics I’ve been hoarding over the last few weeks and made myself a swing skirt. I chose a very simple design and made it by eye rather than trying to get my brain to concentrate … Continue reading “Is having a mini me a little too weird?”
A girls can never own too many Ruby Slippers
I am a massive fan of a brand of shoes called Irregular Choice! They are absolutely amazing and come up with all sorts of quirky and unusual designs. I love them so much I have bought a number of pairs (and no my husband doesn’t know exactly how many and it’s staying like that!) For the past couple of months I have been coveting a pair of their Red Ban Joe’s and saving every penny I can to be able to afford them. I was only about 2 week away from being able to buy them and guess what?? They’re … Continue reading “A girls can never own too many Ruby Slippers”
Graffiti upcycled desk
Since before we moved into our new house two and a half years go my boy has been on about having a zombie themed bedroom. I thought this was a fab idea and quickly started to transform my husband’s old heavy metal t-shirts into wall art….. But apparently they were too scary and gave the boy nightmares. It’s not surprising really given that this is the child who finds every excuse to leave the room when me and his sister watch anything the slightest bit scary. It’s either that or he hides behind his zombie pillow ( http://www.prittstickandpainkillers.com/plants-vs-zombies-fleece-cushion/ ) So … Continue reading “Graffiti upcycled desk”